I’ve had a very frustrating last couple of weeks.
Trying to move forward with new ideas, with change, with a new direction can be challenging.
So I was talking … i.e. complaining, to my boyfriend about this frustration this morning over brunch, and as I was talking what came alive in me once again was the clarity of direction, purpose and energy I experience by this quote. That for me, in this life, this is what I am called to serve and share.
“All that Spirit asks is that you unfold into greater spiritual consciousness and share your awakening with other people.” – John-Roger from Divine Essence (Baraka)
And just as the last word of that quote had left my mouth … my boyfriend responded with “So how are you sharing your awakening right now?
I’m clear that I want to help and inspire others do this. AND … how am I sharing my own awakening in my life, in my own way, these days?
Hence this blog post of course after some months…
So my awakening in this moment, is that my answers are within.
That my love is within.
That all is within.
So following this awareness I decided to spend some time within, some time with the Me that’s invisible and waits patiently and peacefully, until I’m ready to relax and receive of it.
So I packed a notebook and my computer and headed out the front door with a couple of possibilities: park on a blanket or computer and coffee shop.
And again I became aware of how supported I am. A simple intention met with some right action and my pain seemed to dissolve instantly. It was as if just making the decision to put myself first, to give time to myself, to deal just with myself, seemed to wash the frustration and confusion out of my mind instantly. I made the decision to nurture myself and spend time with myself … and then I took the action towards that … i.e. pack my bag and walk out the door … and I walked into a new reality … instantly.
And so then in my new reality – the one I can best relate to words in this physical reality – is an experience of surrender and serendipity.
I walked past a neighbors house with clothes for free on the front lawn … and I picked up one that said:
‘upstart’ on the front
‘you are the upstart’ on the back
I couldn’t have more perfectly described my challenge and my solution at this moment.
If I want to see a new start, a new beginning, a new day …
I need to be this new start and this new day first …
I know the Universe will match me. And I know it starts with me.
So the serendipities continue … and I feel surrounded and filled with the joy of this life.