Insight

Insight II

It’s the Monday after finishing Insight II, so for all of those of you who’ve done Insight II and can remember back to the first time you took it … you know the bright shiny being of love and peace I am right now …

me, bright and shiny after Insight II

Zeus asked me this morning to write a little something for the NDH about my experience doing this Insight II (an incredible 5 day workshop) for the first time …

I have been reluctant to share this following awareness I had during the training, but want to share it here and now …

I was not brought up with religion or spirituality of any kind, and so the bible and stories about Jesus are both new and untainted by past experience. I’m still not really familiar with the bible … but I did watch Mel Gibson’s ‘Passion of the Christ’ … i know, LOL. Regardless, that experience of watching Jesus in that final day, and the loving and purpose he lived his life with … well each time I watch it or reflect on it: it stretches and expands my consciousness and inspires and moves me in a deep and real way.

For me this life is about loving. Quite simply I believe we’re here to learn to love and be loved. The soul, the Spirit is love – and so for me – and what I resonate with in spiritual teachings across history – and most eloquently and intimately brought forward for me by John-Roger – is simply that we’re here to wake up to our reality; our true form: as ‘love’.

me, J-R and Jsu at graduation

It’s easy to be love, to experience love, to express love when things are going great. When someone tells you how amazing you are, gives you a beautiful big gift, expresses their own love for you – it can be easy to move to that place of loving and gratitude and express and experience love.

However the day I watched Jesus (via Mel Gibson and the big screen) … I was presented with the possibility that we can love, experience love, and express love – regardless of all situations and circumstances … that it is possible to be physically tortured beyond comprehension, abused and betrayed by hundreds, nay thousands of people, and show them love and extend compassion to them through all of this. The words ‘Forgive them Father, they know not what they do’ still brings tears to my eyes – tears of radiant joy and liberation: joy for the strength and magic of love, and liberation from the world and its actions are their dictatorship over me.

In Insight II, through all the work I did over five days, stripping away my ‘limiting character’: looking closely at the learned and false behaviors I use and protect myself with; and the time then spent connecting with my true self: the me and expression of me that is joy, is loving, is a direct extension of my soul and the Spirit … well on the last day I had an awareness, a tangible full body experience … that I too am capable of loving to that dimension, that the loving, service and compassion that lived inside Jesus, lives inside me too.

And in the days since, this realization, together with the tools I received from the training, has enabled me to love and be grateful for any adversity I’ve run into – in a way I both can’t explain, nor can relate to the way I would have reacted and related to this in the past.

I’ve heard this idea so many many many times – that everything happens, absolutely everything – for a reason, and is for us; is God blessing and taking care of us – it’s just that we at times are unable to see the blessing in the action at the time. And I stepped more fully into living and breathing that awareness last week, and look forward to continuing to step further into it, each and every day …

For me mostly it’s been hurt feelings that I’ve come up against. Someone does or says something that I interpret means that they don’t like me, or don’t love me. In a few cases in the last week I’ve been yelled at, and hung up on … and it’s been so liberating to know that I don’t need to know the why, the how, the anything about what just happened … but I do know that I can love and be grateful for the situation regardless … and I can know that the situation is for me – that it is a blessing, a gift sent from God to help, support and teach me.

I am inspired by so many people in life and throughout history … but realized I receive the greatest inspiration from … myself. I know that sounds narcissistic and completely self-absorbed, but I was aware that it wasn’t until I did the work, until I did something about letting go of those things I didn’t want, and moved towards and embraced the life and the me that I do want – that I received an experience has truly inspired and empowered me in a way I wasn’t before. And as I reflect on the experiences of my own life – the adversity I’ve overcome, the wins both huge and small, the many trainings and time I’ve spent on getting to know and love myself – that I have been most inspired by these physical experiences. And while we need others around us sharing their Light with us – until we do something to embrace and move towards that Light that is within us – it means relatively little.

So that is a little of my experience with Insight II … My heartfelt thanks to Candy and everyone with Insight, for the transformation and love you inspire and create.

And having J-R, Zeus and Nat at my graduation was of course yet another blessing. During this training I was able to more fully open my heart, accept, and step into what it is to work with these incredible Spiritual Warriors. It was actually during the PAT trainings in 2004, and the compulsory ‘two weeks of waiting’ that followed, that I made the decision to move heaven and earth to work for J-R and MSIA. Right now I am so aware that these trainings, all the trainings we do, gives us these precious, precious opportunities to catch a glimpse of our lives aligned and full with Spirit … and to create the change that will more completely help us live that oneness each and every day …

Clara and me, Peace Awareness Training, Lake Arrowhead

It’s a true blessing we have – the work that J-R has brought forward through Insight Seminars. I personally see Insight exploding sometime shortly in the future. These seminars – that are so easy to share, so easy to present and refer friends to – that given the new age we’re stepping into where the technology and online opportunities to share and refer friends is becoming exponentially easier, and now has the ability to spread and continue reaching people exponentially – it’s exciting to imagine what lies ahead. These are truly exciting times, and I’m looking forward to doing what I can to share my experience, share the gifts I have been given, and share about J-R, the teachings and Insight.

Thanks and much love to Zeus for his support, love and encouragement on all levels.
And beloved J-R, God Bless You my love. I love you.

Zoe Golightly

me and Erin, graduation Insight II, Santa Monica Aug 2009

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