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talking to God

Larchmont farmers market

Larchmont farmers market

[I felt inspired and excited to go to the farmers market at Larchmont this morning. I was tired and relaxed with what today would hold for me, and after chatting with God after I woke up, I was blessed and inspired by the sweet serendipities that blessed my morning. From getting a park (which during the Larchmont farmers market is indeed miraculous), to the busker at the market playing my favorite songs.]

I’m so aware in this moment that my big key right now for moving and change and releasing addiction is to in a consistent, authentic way speak to and ask God for what I want – talking to God, listening to God, being with God in these areas of my life.

“We receive not because we ask not”. And if we receive not even when we’re asking, for me it is great counsel to look at what are my motivations for asking and what is it that I’m truly asking for.

In essence, and in my experience as much as I can decipher, it is that I am always asking for love. To be loved, to be loving, to be love. To experience, know, be aware of love and of ourselves as loving … manifests in, maybe, every single want, desire, need on the planet.

And if love only lives within – if the only love that is real and everlasting – only comes from within ourselves – comes from ourselves – from our direct connection to Spirit and God within – is there any need? Any want that is worth paying attention to? Why not just pay attention and get busy at getting my love from within?

Well for me where this becomes challenging is that living in this ideal doesn’t take into consideration the patterns and desires and implications of being a human being. There are things we’ve come to experience and create and develop … as ways to know ourselves in greater ways of that loving that is the Spirit.

So my quest over the last couple of weeks has been to bring myself into greater harmony with this want and need to be beautiful and thin, and for my addictive patterns of wanting to get love, comfort, escape and satisfaction from food.

These two things for me: trying to get my love from food, and trying to get my love from the idea that if I am thin and beautiful I will be loved by others, and therefore I will be loved. These are addictions that I have been given to assist me in learning more fully how to have compassion for myself as human, how to love it all, and how to overcome the challenge and the temptation to get my love from outside of myself.

This is not a new awareness for me. However granting myself permission to truly forgive myself for my humanness, and to extend a phenomenal new level of compassion to myself and my addictive patterns, is.

And while I have used a myriad of techniques and tips and tricks trying to transcend these addictive patterns, to try and teach myself to get my love from within and not from without, my recent focus of simply putting it in God’s hands and asking for what I want, has brought me the most peace and movement forward in this area.

I think what’s key here for me is the fact that I am going directly to the source – the ‘formless’ – for my guidance and assistance.

God has brought so much loving and insight through in so many various forms – in teachings and ideas and programs and techniques and plans and methods to overcome addiction – yet they are all ‘form’.

We are all so unique, all so directly connected to God, that for me recently to step into a truly unknowing place, a completely open and receptive place of “God I don’t know how to do this. Please do it for me, with me and through me.” An ongoing dialogue every day, as much as I can, to go within and ask God to clear and balance these addictions. To love me and teach me through this process. To upgrade my behavior, thoughts and experience to a higher alignment and vibration of you.

And so for the past couple of weeks my experience has been challenging, still so much doubt and so much inner conflict of wanting these things of the physical world, and wanting to make the right choice and the disappointment and condemnation when I feel like I’m falling short. And yet very slowly and subtly I am aware of my ability to forgive myself for these inevitable fallings down. I am aware of serendipitous ways in which I am attracting support for healthy eating and exercise and other ways to take care of myself – to fill and lift myself up with my loving within. And I am through chatting with God, through asking God so often throughout the day – for help and guidance – I am starting to be more aware of his presence in my relationship with food and with these issues.

I am more and more that because I am spending time with him in asking him to be with me through this and assist me through this – I am more aware that I am not alone and that I am not fighting an uphill battle that is futile and doomed on every level. Its a subtle but powerful sense that God is in this with me and I am much more trusting and believing that I will see a successful resolution to this. That I will not be fighting with myself for the rest of my life – pushing, controlling and contorting myself into a particular body image or a particular set of rules about food and being skinny.

My intention is that through grace – that this process be easy, relaxed, natural and joyful – that I gracefully discover a new balance, a new rhythm and harmony with food and with my body image. That God will serendipitously lead me there and that it will be easy and fun. There is no will power or rules needed. Just grace, love and trust, fueled by my energy, time and intention to speak with God, to ask God, to listen to God, and to my very best ability to cooperate with and align with God.

So I’m excited to see how it will continue to unravel … but so far over the last couple of weeks I feel much more peaceful and trusting of myself.

Light to the continued journey … to be continued.

“As you practice spiritual techniques, you become more and more familiar with the flow of energy patterns that manifest within your consciousness. As you become more familiar with the many levels of your consciousness, you feel more comfortable with yourself and with others in relation to yourself. By continually working with the energies inside ofyou, you learn to recognize what they are, their purpose, their function, their direction. You relax more and more with your own beingness, bringing forward a greater integration of all the levels of yourself.

As this happens, you are no longer at the mercy of your physical habit patterns, emotional addictions, mental games, or unconscious urgings. You are able to successfully direct yourself into more positive patterns of behavior and expression.”

- John-Roger

Erik Kufs, Larchmont Farmers Market
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Complete what you start if you want more energy

If I ever needed encouragement to take the trash out of my car this is it.  I walked past this car this afternoon.  That’s right this isn’t for a movie, and it’s not a prank.  This was just on the side of the road.

Leaving loose ends in your life is like leaving loose trash in your car, it builds up and steals your energy, space and freedom

Leaving loose ends in your life is like leaving loose trash in your car, it builds up and steals your energy, space and freedom

I have been more mindful recently about completing each day. For me this means simply putting everything away from the day, so that when I wake up tomorrow my space is clear and open and my head and energy is clear and open to get energized and excited about this new and fresh day.

This may be common sense and old news to so many. But for me, this is actually a new win for me, and has been a major revelation. I unfortunately was born with the natural disposition of wanting to come home from work and throw my clothes and bags on the floor. Then make dinner and leave dishes in the sink til morning … soaking of course, but none the less not complete but waiting til tomorrow. And I would stay up on the computer and leave my office midway through emails, projects, with paper and notes laid all across my desk.

Then when things get busy, and busier, I notice that somehow the next morning I don’t manage to get those clothes in the dirty clothes basket, the dishes pile up in the sink, and who knows how many open projects I have from one side of my desk to the other.

As much as I had to laugh at this car FULL of trash … sometimes I have let my apartment and my life build up with incompletions that have cluttered my life, my mind and my energy just as effectively.

So my new habit of completing each day. Simply just putting everything away before I go to bed at night has been a revelation.

When it comes down to it … it’s actually the little things in life. The simple things that can make the most profound differences.

so what do you want?

[“Most of our difficulties start with wanting things” – John-Roger, DSS from NDH.org]

This tweet yesterday* and this article from John-Roger really spoke to me today. This section particularly:

“When we tap in to authentic power, we do not then need to become anything in the world. We just become present with the true self. The true self is joyful and loving. It needs nothing external to be joyful about.”

I have so many reference points, so many of my own personal experiences to know that this is true. Working with John-Roger, the energy and the loving that comes in when I am serving, am working to assist him and his work – is joy. And more than joy – it’s beyond words – but ‘joy’ is the closest thing for it. Maybe subtle, peaceful, completely calm joy – like a smile that radiates from the center of my heart and radiates out a billion miles either side. That kind of joy.

John-Roger and me at the Serving & Giving by Living the Way of the Spiritual Warrior Event in Santa Barbara

John-Roger and me at the Serving & Giving by Living the Way of the Spiritual Warrior Event in Santa Barbara

So If I claim to know that this kind of joy; the true and real kind of joy; the joy that comes from within, comes from our Soul; exists. Then why is it that I find myself wallowing around in sadness, hurt feelings, frustration and seeking joy from this external world – still?

And I have absolutely no answer to this question, but I have been working on some ways to help me get from the aimless chase of getting my joy from the outside world, from the negativity of hurt feelings, sadness, frustration, that seem to come with that – into a greater place of joy – the real joy.

I have this new method, as part of my Doctorate of Spiritual Science I’m using called ‘JOY NOW’. It’s an acronym. Just Open Yourself. Now Observe Within.

So when I’m up against something negative, I feel down, hurt, frustrated, whatever … I close my eyes and turn inwards and I imagine I am opened from top to bottom – like if there was a line straight down my center – it peels back and I’m present with my very center – with what’s inside. I then breathe, and observe, am present, listening, observing of what I find, see, hear, am aware of.

Sometimes I’m aware of a judgment – I’m suddenly aware I’ve been holding onto something rude someone said to me this morning – so I forgive that person, and I forgive myself, and I feel the energy coming loose and my joy coming back.

Sometimes I’m just aware of a raging sea of anger, like there is so much movement going on I have no idea what’s going on, so the first thing I do is to chant. I use my initiatory tone or ‘Ani Hu’. This chant connects me with the sound current, and immediately starts bringing in the energy of Spirit and starts to clear the negative sea of energy welling and moving around inside of me. Often I will need to chant for at least five minutes, and then I’m aware of what’s blocking me from my joy, and then I forgive it, and am one with joy again.

Sometimes the first thing that comes into my awareness when I do this I ‘DO YOUR LAUNDRY’, and I am once again reminded that the many incompletions I run around with are draining my energy, and the simple act of completing what is present for me to do, frees me up, and frees the energy inside of me and returns me to my most centered energy of joy.

And many times … I’m finding often that when I go inside and am aware of hurt feelings, hurt feelings because things didn’t go the way I wanted them to. I wanted to control and have everything go my way, and when they don’t … I feel hurt. So I forgive myself for this, for all judgments, and I use this affirmation: ‘Everything is Perfect Right Now’ … and I remember, I breathe in and do my best to come back to the truth and the oneness that Spirit is creating everything for the highest good for me – always, in all ways, and truly everything is as it is because Spirit loves me so much, and only creates the very best for me. Everything is Perfect Right Now. Everything. Yes that means … E-ver-y-thing.

And as I play around with this, I am more and more aware that there are no rules, there are no shoulds or should nots – there is just me and Spirit – and me doing the best I can to do what is here for me to do – for me to do what brings me into the oneness that is the joy. The true joy that is limitless, lives forever, isn’t governed by this world and the rules and restrictions we try and put on it – it just is there – waiting for me to be aware and be in cooperation with it as it radiates from within me and extends to all things around me. The joy that is the Spirit.

And I am once again aware that really, this is all I want in life. I want joy. I want the joy that is real, that is pure, that is me.

I love you all,
Zoe

These CDs from John-Roger have helped me with my work on this method … check them out if you like:
‘Observation – the Key to Letting Go’ | ‘Learning to Observe Your Guilt & Resentment’

*And Yes John-Roger is now on twitter!!! Twitter.com/johnroger

J-R and me, Serving and Giving by Living the Way of the Spiritual Warrior, Santa Barbara event

J-R and me, Serving and Giving by Living the Way of the Spiritual Warrior, Santa Barbara event

John-Roger (center) Michael Hayes (left) me (right)

John-Roger (center) Michael Hayes (left) me (right)

breathing for clearing

hey dear ones,

in one of my favorite meditations from John-Roger he mentions a process of breathing where you exhale completely – breathing all the old, stagnant air out of your lungs – allowing more fresh energy and vitality to come in. the speed of either in or out breathe isn’t important – it’s just about exhaling completely, where you push and breathe out absolutely all of the air that you can.

i’ve been using this method of breathing – just three breaths at a time – whenever i feel stale, funky, junked up. and the power and intensity of this technique has been growing and has become a really quick, effective and magical tool for me in shifting out of negative thinking or negative emotions.

i actually did my 3 grace breaths just now (i call them grace breaths because my intention is to clear and let go of anything negative through grace) – i spent the last five hours driving and walking around LA and Beverly Hills promoting Saturday night’s Barnes & Noble event – meeting and networking with owners of stores, customers, people i met on the street … and was just aware that i felt completely drained and not just tired but funky.

so i did my 3 grace breaths and had one of my more magical experiences with it. it felt like there were these dramatic cold shivers – energy releasing from my body – except i wasn’t cold, but actually a little warm. and i feel awake and great now. feel clear, Light, and peaceful.

so i did just google this kind of breathing – to find out if there are any medical or other references for it … so i have listed these below, which include the following health benefits:
- Reduced susceptibility to minor illnesses such as colds and coughs as well as more serious illnesses such as bronchitis and asthma.
- Improved vitality and reduced fatigue.
- Better thinking power.
- Lesser susceptibility to anxiety or stress.

Info for John-Roger meditations below too :)

love you all,
Zoe

Yogic Breathing – http://www.punjabihospitality.com/Yoga15-Pranayama.asp (almost half way down page)
Tendai Lotus Teachings – http://shingondharmazazen.wordpress.com/2007/12/27/zazen-shikantaza/ (about one fifth way down page)
Dr Weil’s Art & Science of Breathing – http://www.drweil.com/drw/u/ART02039/the-art-and-science-of-breathing.html

John-Roger’s meditations – www.msia.org/store

instant ipod inspiration

hi dearest ones,

i posted a list of one of my ipod playlists yesterday that I call ‘instant inspiration’. i kinda thought i was the only one that had this magical healing relationship with music, but it seems that we all do. oh that’s right, we’re all one. gotta remember that.

anyway, this youtube video features one of my favorite songs ‘Seeing’ by our good friend Eric Lumiere – and the slideshow that David Sand has put to it – people in their loving, joy and peace. it’s pretty hard for me not to be completely in love with everything and everyone after watching this.

so enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUB_Xp5Y8EI

and at the end of the video there is contact info for David Sand (photographer), Eric Lumiere (singer/songwriter) and the workshops you’re seeing are PTS.

much Love,
zoe goLightly

This Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Daily Idea was sent or posted by me, zoe goLightly. I post every Free Daily Idea at www.zoegolightly.wordpress.com and my facebook blog: http://bit.ly/FU7MK and I distribute them through my facebook group ‘Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Ideas Daily’ http://bit.ly/nvbG1 | I created this group as a way for us to share our ideas about living with more health, wealth and happiness with 2 purposes in mind: 1) to create an excellent free daily subscription that is created by its followers and completely non-profit, and 2) to support, empower and promote each other and all the great work we are doing by sharing brief details about each daily idea’s author | If you have an idea for us I’d love to hear from you zoegolightly@gmail.com | Be my facebookfriend http://bit.ly/GNnPg and follow me at twitter.com/zoegolightly ;) | Much love and Light to you all, zoe goLightly
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dancing in the streets

hey dear ones,

so i was driving to newport beach tonight for a networking meeting, and noticing all the people driving either side of me weren’t really that happy, or at least i was judging their behavior as not looking so happy, or at least that it was significantly different to my behavior, which WAS different, because i WAS feeling particularly happy.

and not for any particular reason, other than my usual gratitude for my ipod and the steady stream of tunes that i was listening to. so i was considering this, and a free-flowing-philosophical monologue began to follow … which i will of course share with you all now …

dancing in the streets tip #1 – know what you like
i was aware that in life it helps to know what i like, and to put the time and effort into going and getting it. like instead of listening to any old song on the radio, with some forethought and effort, i created pure listening enjoyment simply from knowing what songs i like and then going and getting them.

dancing in the streets tip #2 – don’t worry about being watched
i was also aware that i was participating. i was not only singing along, but dancing from the waist up. and not only singing and dancing, but singing and dancing as if i were being filmed for the music video. of course it crossed my mind more than once how embarassing i might have looked, and that people perhaps thought i was on some form of narcotic, but i think in doing what i want, in dancing to ‘my own tunes’, and in fully completely participating in life – sometimes maybe i get judged, or labeled in some way, and that’s ok.

dancing in the streets tip #3 – there’s always a first for everything
i think the other cool part of participating and really living our lives, is that that gives an example for others to do the same. who knows, maybe i was inspiring and reminding a whole freeway full of folks that proceeded to get their groove on

dancing in the streets tip #4 – ‘dance it out’ – ok you need to watch Grey’s to get that, but the explanation you’ll be able to follow …
i was also aware how the day’s tension, concerns and cares seemed to be lifting. and ok now you can really call me slightly insane, but the bopping of my head, side to side, or up and down in time to the music, seemed to not only be clearing me and relaxing me on all levels, but seemed to be giving me energy. like in really moving with and aligning myself with the song, i was tuning into that energetic super happy vibration and seemed to be energizing myself. and that started to make sense (in terms of my new thesis on dancing while driving will grant you all the keys to life ;-) that when i do move in time to the rhythm, or sing in harmony, or come into alignment with what’s going on in my life – i am conscoiusly choosing to come into cooperation with the flow and the natural energy flow of the universe – and i feel or seem energized by this.

dancing in the streets tip #5 – it’s my car and i’ll dance if i want to
and lastly i was just kinda happy about my ability to be enthusiastic, child-like, and really choose to enjoy myself – because that is my choice. and that is always my choice.

so needless to say my meeting was awesome. i arrived feeling high, happy and just really excited to meet this group of new people. and i don’t think many people probably say that after having spent 90mins on the 405 south in peak hour traffic.

i’m just truly grateful for having the opportunity to share this with you all. just this process of putting it down on paper has been powerful for me, and i do encourage you to send me your ideas, your life’s inspiring and insightful moments, and watch the magic that happens when you put it down on paper AND send it to me ;-)
til tomorrow …
love you all,
Zoe

This Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Daily Idea was sent or posted by me, zoe goLightly. I post every Free Daily Idea at www.zoegolightly.wordpress.com and my facebook blog: http://bit.ly/FU7MK and I distribute them through my facebook group ‘Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Ideas Daily’ http://bit.ly/nvbG1 | I created this group as a way for us to share our ideas about living with more health, wealth and happiness with 2 purposes in mind: 1) to create an excellent free daily subscription that is created by its followers and completely non-profit, and 2) to support, empower and promote each other and all the great work we are doing by sharing brief details about each daily idea’s author | If you have an idea for us I’d love to hear from you zoegolightly@gmail.com | Be my facebookfriend http://bit.ly/GNnPg and follow me at twitter.com/zoegolightly ;) | Much love and Light to you all, zoe goLightly

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free form writing

hi dear ones,

this is one of the most incredible tools I have found over the years, and am currently doing this for 30 minutes everyday (since January 1st this year).

John-Roger created this technique over thirty years ago, and he includes a detailed description of it in his book ‘Spiritual Warrior: The Art of Spiritual Living’. following is a detailed description of the free form writing process taken from this book, and will give you everything you need to experiment with this tool yourself. and if you do want more information, you can purchase the book from ww.msia.org/store.

and if you’re in Los Angeles, PTS (Peace Theological Seminary & College of Philosophy) do run free workshops on free-form writing, and the next one is Wednesday February 18th at 7.30PM. go to pts.org for info.

free form writing is a tool used to clear unconscious blocks, and as we release these unconscious inner disturbances we can experience amazing shifts: in breaking bad habits, in clearing obsessive behaviors, or in letting go of thoughts or feelings that we don’t want but that seem to follow us around like bad smells :) often it will feel like a great relief or a sense that a great weight has been lifted.

how to do free-form writing
1. sit down with a pen and paper. make sure you have privacy, and it’s a good idea to burn a candle while doing this process
2. just write. this is a process of writing whatever comes into your mind, without editing, thinking about it, analyzing it, doing anything with it – just whatever thoughts come into your mind, write them down. if you can’t think of anything to say write ‘i can’t think of anything to write’. if you’re feeling frustrated write ‘this is so stupid, this is so frustrating, i don’t know why i’m doing this’. perhaps what comes up doesn’t make sense, that’s ok, just write it ‘the purple elephant is not supposed to be here, i don’t understand why he always comes by when it rains’. this is a free-form process, so just keep in the flow of the thoughts coming forward, and write them down, and keep writing them down until the time you have decided to stop.
3. when you’re finished DO NOT READ IT. this is very important, rip it up and either burn it or flush it down the toilet. doing this is part of the releasing process so you must burn or flush what you write.
4. after you’ve finished make sure you move or stretch a little bit, and drink some water
5. never share what you have written with others, and is why we suggest you do this in private
6. start with 15 minutes or so and build up to writing for an hour, optimally 2 hours

for more information, you can purchase:
‘Spiritual Warrior: The Art of Spiritual Living’ book:

http://www.msia.org/store/product.php?productid=4111&cat=0&page=2

‘Living In Grace’ 4 CD Packet: http://www.msia.org/store/search.php?mode=search&page=1
‘Fulfiling Your Spiritual Promise’ book:

http://www.msia.org/store/search.php?mode=search&page=1

This Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Daily Idea was sent or posted by me, zoe goLightly. I post every Free Daily Idea at www.zoegolightly.wordpress.com and my facebook blog: http://bit.ly/FU7MK and I distribute them through my facebook group ‘Free Healthy Wealthy Happy Ideas Daily’ http://bit.ly/nvbG1 | I created this group as a way for us to share our ideas about living with more health, wealth and happiness with 2 purposes in mind: 1) to create an excellent free daily subscription that is created by its followers and completely non-profit, and 2) to support, empower and promote each other and all the great work we are doing by sharing brief details about each daily idea’s author | If you have an idea for us I’d love to hear from you zoegolightly@gmail.com | Be my facebookfriend http://bit.ly/GNnPg and follow me at twitter.com/zoegolightly ;) | Much love and Light to you all, zoe goLightly

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