Thoughts for this Friday night … in between doing my best to get my inbox to zero, watching Mad Men season one and eating yogurt with frozen raspberries … I feel like I’m close to finding something. Some new way of being that works for me that can help me out of this rut. Like …
“Do not be afraid of mistakes. This planet is full of them.” – John-Roger
A quote from my Wayshower John-Roger … “All along, there was growing within me a longing for Light and for love and for the manifestation of God in some form that I could identify and relate to. My prayer became, “Lord, you can have the whole thing. I just want to know who you are.” …
My idea was simply about viewing each experience in life – even the seemingly ‘bad’ ones – as connecting ‘grace’ dots to greater and truly wonderful outcomes. And that the more we can view each experience as helping and directing and serving us – the easier and more fluidly those dots might line up and manifest that that we truly want. And again I have no proof, yet ;) … but to me it makes sense that if I am connecting the dots, getting from place A to place B, that those dots won’t always line up in perfectly straight lines, and while it may ‘look’ as though I’m heading on a different path – to know and trust I’m still on the same path – I’m always on the same path – the path to better, to goodness, to the best possible. And to therefore quit wasting time and energy with feeling bad about it and look forward to the next dot – the next bit of grace that will move us forward.
So If I claim to know that this kind of joy; the true and real kind of joy; the joy that comes from within, comes from our Soul; exists. Then why is it that I find myself wallowing around in sadness, hurt feelings, frustration and seeking joy from this external world – still?
“Spirit is not somber and still. It is free and spontaneous. Don’t be afraid of the best part of you. Let the you that you like the best shine out in the world. Delight in it. When you are happy, when you are laughing, when you are loving, the radiance of your Soul shines through, and all are lifted by it.”
Perhaps the greatest acts of service, and our divine spiritual purpose is simply to be happy.
If nothing else, it reassures me that everyone goes through tough, tough times … and that everyone feels magic, love and joy at times too.
Whatever is in front of me, I have the choice to enjoy it and line up with it. And to line up with it 100% – and as if it were designed, carefully and specifically orchestrated for me by some Supreme power from up above.
I am so aware of the power of smiling. And you know it’s almost like it’s a lost secret or something, because there haven’t been too many folks that have smiled at me since I started the gym … so tonight I started smiling at a few random strangers in my kickboxing class, for no reason, but just to share my lovely self with them and connect in some way … and the outcome was just, well, it was just really lovely, it brought me joy, and a feeling of oneness, peacefulness and did i mention joy … ?! I felt more connected, both with the group and with myself, and with what I was doing, with my purpose and joy for being there. Was really just a neat experience.
Hey dear ones, I have been reminded recently to start using my ‘Emergency Light List’ again. I started creating this list a few years ago – I keep it on my Palm Treo – so wherever I am if I’m in need of clearing, loving, inspiring, lifting – I can randomly choose something from this …
I feel like email has turned many of us into highly reactive beings – rather than highly proactive beings. Instead of me directing my own work, my own projects, I let the people in my inbox determine my time, and where my energy goes.
So if I’m not feeling great, or need some help coming into that place or consciousness within that is just simply loving, Light, and joy … i often use this idea and think, completely fill myself on all levels with the energy and act of loving for someone i truly and unconditionally love.
I really get that. I think too often I spend my life trying to find, trying to create, trying to experience, trying, trying, trying. And forgetting that what I’m searching for I already have – I just need to be still … be present … be me … long enough for me to realize that happiness is on my doorstep, and has been knocking for hours.
i know for me and the POV i have on my life – i value experiences of learning, love, growth, joy and peace – because these all contribute to something i can take when i leave this planet – i.e. my beautiful growing glowing consciousness … but for my car, my new dress, my big house … well i’ve been told i can’t bring these with me …